Knitting and Crying

Just over a month ago I lost my mother.  It seems like all I want to do now is knit.  I think it's the only time that I feel better.  The day after the funeral, I went to a local yarn shop and bought some yarn in greens and blues that made me feel better.  I've been knitting a heavy shawl with it to wear over jackets on chilly mornings.  When I stop knitting, I start thinking about my mother and start crying.  She was my only close family. It's hard to sleep at night.